in theory, i know it's bad superbad and very likely killative (and it's not even pretty) buuuuuuuuuuuut.. quitting is not an option right now. i mean, really. i smoke because i am stressed. this is why i started in the first place - stressful situation, guy from hell nearly ripped my beating heart from my chest so i puffed an entire pack in one evening (guess what? he was an aries and my sister from the future should have warned me about this). and it made me feel slightly better. so quitting means everything has to be so peaceful and perfect around me. because previous attempts at quitting turned me into a lilith on crack. so yeah