random thursday chilly august morning. instant coffee and queen, stuck in neverwhere, smiling... "let them eat cake" - just like marie antoinette

Je suis le Ténébreux, - le Veuf, - l'Inconsolé,
Le Prince d'Aquitaine à la Tour abolie :
Ma seule Etoile est morte, - et mon luth constellé
Porte le Soleil noir de la Mélancolie.


Dans la nuit du Tombeau, Toi qui m'as consolé,
Rends-moi le Pausilippe et la mer d'Italie,
La fleur qui plaisait tant à mon coeur désolé,
Et la treille où le Pampre à la Rose s'allie.


Suis-je Amour ou Phébus ?... Lusignan ou Biron ?
Mon front est rouge encor du baiser de la Reine ;
J'ai rêvé dans la Grotte où nage la sirène...


Et j'ai deux fois vainqueur traversé l'Achéron :
Modulant tour à tour sur la lyre d'Orphée
Les soupirs de la Sainte et les cris de la Fée.

of course this is one of my top favourite poems in the universe. young widowed prince who is tall and pretty with wavy hair and the sweetest hazel eyes. he lives in a dark castle on a rainy and foggy island and he's all alone there. because he banished everyone after his wife died... and he is a little mad and extremely in pain. Also, i am quite sure he is taking certain herbs that make him hallucinate. The Other King? Yep, i think so.

for some particular reason, this fills me with glee. maybe because it's supposed to mean putting an end to the confusing mess that threatens to expand beyond my abilities to control it. and what time more appropriate is for saturn to hit libra than samhain?

The first Saturn Return is famous because it represents the first test of character and the structures a person has built their lives upon. According to traditions, should these structures be unsound or that a person is living out of touch with his or her true values, the Saturn Return will be a time of upheaval and limitations as Saturn forces him or her to jettison old concepts and worn out patterns of living. It is not uncommon for relationships and jobs to end during this time of life restructuring and reevaluation.

But the Saturn Return is not all about painful endings. During this time astrologers note that goals are consolidated and people tend to gain a better vision of where they are going in life. There are added responsibilities and a person may reap the rewards from his or her hard work. Many major life milestones seem to happen around the ages of 29 and 30. This is why astrologers believe that the thirtieth birthday is such a major rite of passage because it marks the true beginning of adulthood, self-evaluation, independence, ambition, and self actualization.

The planet Saturn represents many archetypes, such as Father Time, the Grim Reaper and his scythe, Kronos, and the Lord of Karma. It is the ruler of limitations, fears, seriousness, responsibilities, burdens, and lessons (thank you. now let's move on). While those concepts may come across as negative, Saturn also astrologically rules over civilization, government, structures, harvests (maybe this is why i am having a generalized problem with harvesting right now), prestige, maturity, and order. Plus, Saturn is exalted in Libra. This explains the fairness issue i am developing and the rewards issue. because, you know, it's all about balance. you give and you get. there's no such thing as a free meal. Saturn has a scale but also a scythe. maybe i will stop fearing to use the scythe.

no matter what certain jaded capricorns and virgoans believe. it's just a matter of perspective and where to look for it.

Traditional astrological wisdom holds that Libras are most compatible with Gemini, Leo, Libra Sagittarius and Aquarius, and least compatible with Aries, Cancer, Capricorn and Pisces. But what do the actual marriage and divorce statistics say?

Mathematician Gunter Sachs conducted a large-scale study of sun signs and found statistically significant results on a number of measures. Marriage and divorce findings are outlined below.