since apparently mercury in leo is good for keeping journals and i am in a vague mood for contemplating ....stuff.
1. i was under neptune's spell last summer, which was possibly one of the worst summers in my personal history for a lot of reasons including a bout of denial who wasn't just a river in egypt. in conclusion: real touchable life is infinitely better in all its infinite madness than living in a dream
2. transiting lilith, venus and jupiter through the first house of self was probably one of the best things ever. they brought on the awesome. EPIC AWESOME. excuse me for wanting a whole lot more of that, don't stop here, pleaseeeeeeeee
3. apparently, i am honing my powers of bitchcraft which isn't quintessentially my fault. i had to deal with a lot of mad people in my life
4. what's the deal with meeting so many scorpios? is it a karmic thing or something? i am used to meet fellow air-signs but these people operate on an entirely different level and they're sooooo sensitive. which brings us to the next point: i come from the school of roll-with-the-punches air plus i had to deal with a lot of mad people in my life which inherently makes the whole perspective on life slightly skewed. i don't understand ego and probably a lot of other things and yes, i am very blunt because life taught me so.
5. geminis rock. not all of them, possibly, but at least some

...i have no idea where this sudden burst of energy came from, but i'm acting like the efficiency fairy lately which is slightly stunning. i finished the dress for the girl, which came out pretty, my dress for oana's wedding, which is emerald green silk and floats around and a whole lot of work plus some actual interacting with people. also, tomorrow i will have mani/pedi and eyebrows done because i totally deserve some beautification.
...debussy helps fighting the stress. it's entrancing, otherwordly and the afternoon of a faun (wow!! nureyev dancing!!!) reminds me this world is not populated only by barbarians. although, given the last few days, i suspect that unfortunately there are too many of them savages. rhetorical question now: why do they tempt me? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy do they have to mention the middle ages in front of someone who studies this for the fun of it for years now? i bit my tongue not to ask about the chansons de geste, guillaume d'orange, marie de france and what were the actual duties of a knight and how this figure was transformed from the rugged warlord in rusty chain mail into the idealized knight in shining armour..
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy did i have to hear such preposterous statements such as "good thing we are living in a republic, not a democracy"? seriously, i graduated political science. i know the difference between the one and the other. and the political system that person was talking about was both by all definitions. to be very specific, a republic with representative democracy, because, let's face it, we no longer live in athens to gather every day in the public square in order to vote for every little law/amendment/whatever while the slaves do all the work.
...what most of all annoys me is that we no longer claim we can't have access to information. we live in a world where information, infinite amounts of it are literally at our finger tips. you are interested in something? you can just google it and voila a gazillion pages, opinions, resources. unless you live in a cave you have no excuse for being an intellectual dwarf. and one can't even claim we are controlled by big brother because, people, this is the good part of the communication devices we have now!! we come in contact with so much diversity, which is a GOOD thing and should encourage thinking and even more opinions one can freely express to the world. like i do right now.
......despite some minor exceptions, which shall be filed under the "oh well, there must be some bad parts", air merlins still rock. some of those i know can do some actual magic and create beauty, which make things better

for better or for worse i suffer of a fatal attraction towards:

a. fire-sign females aka fire-xenas. my best friends have been either aries or leo. they're uber-supportive, optimistic, fun to be around, passionate, energetic and have a lot of initiative (which suits this libby-fleur just fine as i get to fawn over them to my heart's content). however, the males of the species are.... let me find the nice words for them. most of the time they're too... to say the very least, demanding.

b. air-signs males aka air merlins. because while they have some exasperating traits, you can eventually reach an agreement (most of the times, at least). because they can cook and they are very smart and funny and their achille's heel is romance. seriously, they have the "wow" in the romance department. nevermind what they say about fire guys being passionate, water guys being mushy or earth guys being sensual. air sign males will woo you like no other. because they have staying power.because they can offer unbiased opinions. and sometimes they are positively magical. because they are the right confidantes. just like fire signs females.

i am not saying that the rest of the zodiac isn't awesome in its own right just that... oh well, that's me.