inanna. of course. more specifically, her descent to the underworld. if that's not inspirational, i don't know what it is.

you know, i do not complain a lot. but this year actively wanted to make a point of knocking me over. don't ask me to be philosophical about it.
the fall of the TV. and they still owe me money. by the way i did not forget about that
that stint at the newspaper
the whole subsequent mess that followed. and the waiting
bureacracy (you know, hell is made of bureacracy)
the death of paco
mom's heart attack
the romantic trials and tribulations which led to several "pounding into the ground" moments. like wtf was "i'm not ready for a relationship?" (does one need special training for that?? i thought it was all about "i like you and you like me back and let's move on from there". i still think that). and then there were other "feeling like being flayed alive" epic moments which shall not be mentioned because i seriously want to be amnesiac about those.
waitiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. which i loathe with all my heart. waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggggggg for people to make up their mind, for things to happen, for whatever blah.
i say to 2012: let's move on. go. stop waiting. put things in motion because motion is good and let's make good stuff happen without having to endure a whole plethora of issues. keywords: NICE AND EASY. i need NICE. and i need EASY. AND MONEY AND LOVE GOT THE NICE AND EASY WAY. seriously. throw the challenges at the adrenaline junkies.

....most of them not the easy way. actually it was pretty gory some of the times. and considering that a vast majority of my dating life was about aquarians, i know what i am talking about:
- stand my ground.
- saying what i have to say in a very direct and precise way because allusions just won't do it.
- the above 2 things are the main reasons why i come off as blunt, confrontational and forceful. the "break my heart and i'll break your neck" attitude came after a series of unfortunate events that did not end until i pounded them into the ground.
- independence (you know, my instinct tells me to be co-dependent. then i met some aquarians who would not co-depend. i would still gladly and happily co-depend but on some normal terms)
- self-confidence. that was also forged during the water-bearer wars. partially because if you survive those battles, no one can practically do anything to you.

the fire-version. blood and guts. look at the xena kicking ass.



the water version. campy, funny and with a piranha edge in it.

why don't we get our snow white? as in the air-sign version of snow white??? come on, we promise we're fun!!

actually it's one of the best and sensible lines in movie history:

will find nice sensible boyfriend and stop forming romantic attachments to any of the following: alcoholics, workaholics, sexaholics, commitment-phobics, peeping toms, megalomaniacs, emotional fuckwits, or perverts.

also, i would like to thank the universe for my xena BFF, sister-fish and her psychic insight that i promise to listen religiously from now on and never question it again, my gemini BMF and all the other people who keep me on an even keel. they are my tribe.

again, words of wisdom from mystic medusa
"Dark Moon Bitch Goddess Lilith is in late Aries and opposing Saturn: that combined with Uranus Direct has quite a few peeps telling tradition, patriarchy, one authority in particular to go fuq itself – definitely a spirited re-think of received opinion, especially from older males/Saturn figures."
wow, that sort of explains everything, since saturn is on my sun and by extension lilith is opposing those 2 planets. and pluto too. and my natal lilith. 

conflict management 101 and assertive communication :

stay on subject and avoid generalizations - check
avoid comparisons - check
describe what you feel and be really specific - check,
offer explanations, motives for the way you feel that way - check.

then the teacher/psy offered the example of "you left the lights on in the bathroom. do turn them off, it bothers me when you leave the lights on". and then i asked her "what if the person you're asking to turn the lights off is not listening to your very specific demand and instead starts talking about the history of electricity?" she said: "basically it means that person is not interested in what you have to say".
in conclusion, i'd like to thank the universe deeply for the absolutely delicious treat it sent to me after a bitter pill.

...."you have pretty feet", he said.

other than that, a very libra video/song