and sometimes i wish i could just lay across it and wait for either thawing or solid freezing. in the meanwhile, i am trying to give up smoking (at least one good thing to do on a saturn return). so i'm basically not thinking about smoking and convincing my body it doesn't need, smoking is bad and it costs a lot. actually, the last part is quite an incentive so... there. i am focusing on how many pretty things i could buy instead of cigarettes. carrot routine should work.