although last night they say it was proper for dreaming, i dreamt of nothing or i did but i couldn't remember a damn thing.

 do i feel worried? yes. it's this whole saturn vs. neptune thing. reality vs. wishful thinking and feelings that defy logic (or they don't, but then you can put them nicely in a box labeled "stuff i have no idea how to deal with" and whatever, just move on).but when i can't tell the difference between the saturn stuff and the neptune stuff, i feel like being hit by a ton of bricks. *excuse me while i go and have a good old-fashioned panic attack

in any case, i'm there, here, whatever "here" and "there" mean anymore. just see what happens

later edit: you know what? even if this eats me alive eventually, i'm not giving up. still here and there