but first thing first: HBO might be doing an adaptation of American Gods. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!! HBO does superb series, so i put my faith in them especially since this is one of my favorite neil gaiman gooks. DON'T SCREW THIS UP, IT'S IMPORTANT, I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR A SCREEN ADAPTATION FOR YEARS NOW!!!!!!!. i mean it. and please make peter stormare chernobog. and choose mr. wednesday carefully (honestly, read the edda first - odin is a very complex figure, quite ambivalent, so please!)
back to dina - seen the movie again. it's still very much awesome, especially because they don't do movies like that too often. "i am dina who sees" she says at the end. dina is very much a lilith character and definitely you don't want to mess with her or scorn her. point in case: leo the anarchist, fuckwitter extraordinaire. she spends half the movie being nice to him and trying to build a decent relationship and how does he react? "oh, people are starving, i'm taking your money and i don't owe you anything even if you saved me from hanging. kthxbai". so dina shoots him at point blank and dumps his sorry ass into the river. which was a great movie ending, because if there was an american version:
a. leo  would have gotten away with it and dina would have had that internal speech about growing stronger blah blah blah
b. leo would have confessed that he luffs her truly madly deeply because he's another unicorn-who-appears-in-american-movies
fin

but this time less disturbing - as in i am part of an all-girl vampire-hunting team. then the nazguls interfere with our vampire-hunting and we hide in a room under a bed and then i wake up. trust me on this one, facing nazguls is a piece of cake compared to the previous nightmares. and last night, it was a benign dream of whatever which i don't remember therefore all is good. on a vaguely related note - there is a hobbit trailer, yay! okay, production video. still YAY!!! because i thought i will grow old and die before they make it! can we have some aragorn though? pleasepleaseplease PJ? *bats eyelashes shamelessly. like a premonition of him entering the gates of helm deep (because he was awesome in those particular 20 seconds. okay, he's awesome in general, but that was the boom-chicka-wow-wow of him awesome)
other than that - rain. much rain, too much rain, omg, where are the sparkly vampires now? I WANT SUN AND SPRING !!!
a few more days left to the grand premiere of games of thrones where there will be big strong killative noble and heroic men. and boromir/eddard should better put his boom-chicka-wow-wow on.
other than that, i want a serious and committed relationship. with a shrink. on a second thought, maybe not. he'll still use me as therapy, and we'll get to a dead end thingie there.
that being said, i'm off to sleep.

or nightmares, to be more specific. that is plain odd, i tell you. after witnessing the destruction of the world roland emmerich-style (earthquakes! tsunamis! massive fires, omg! no hurricanes, though...), last night i've got to the really fun part - struggling with unjust male power. the really bad part was that it felt so real and not at all like a dream. basically it involved confronting all the effin' things that ever bothered me in males, all at once in concentrated form (and, unlike other dreams, there was no scythe to wield, because it was so damn real).
later edit: if i was brave enough to face all these issues in real life BY MYSELF, i will be able to face them in dreams, so help me the black moon.

... unless you're more committed to the Cause,
you'll be blacklisted too.
in truth, i do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note; 
Should my heart love what they despise?
I'm so not sure thou art the one to dote.

...see, i can totally be poetic. especially when it comes to certain people who mistake kindness and sweetness for immaturity and stupidity. which is when i want to kick their unappreciative punk-asses. 

and i truly believe that "before" was not better. the golden age wasn't in the past. if the past was so brill, why did my ancestors lived to be 40, if they were lucky, and died of common flu? most of them were ignorant of the world around them.
today, ignorance is a choice more than anything else. you have virtually instant access to the entire world and its knowledge, there are countless possibilities of being informed and shaping your life the way you want it. it would have not been possible for me to get in touch with certain people before. i would have been deprived of many experiences.
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first things first - hbo is evil. only 15 minutes??? and i have to wait 2 weeks now for the first episode??? come on, hbo, you're so. not. fair.
that being said, games of thrones looks like the best series ever. the imagery is breathtaking, THERE IS THE SEAN WHO IS TEN SHADES OF AWESOME OMG. he was born to play the lord of Winterfell and i bet the Aries in him got all giddy at the idea. unfortunately, the books say he will get dead (again! Aragorn is smirking with kingly satisfaction somewhere) there is high fantasy and a touch of horror and it's like watching a grittier lord of the rings.
other than that, in 15 minutes we got to the body count of 3, including a decapitation (look, Aragorn would not be happy about it. i guess Eddard is definitely thinking it's a damn fine thing Aragorn is not king in this movie. there's no one to shadow his gritty awesome, which Aragorn does in LotR. repeatedly. because he's Aragorn)

in conclusion, i just can't wait for that damn episode, omg.